remember those are possibly just your deepest fears - the fear that he'll change his mind and he will bring his dirt back into the wonderful space you have created for yourself.
i don't dream that - i think it consciously all the time.
it was freaking me out how scared i am if he changes his mind and i've sat with that a lot in the past few days and told myself that it is not an irrational fear, it is what we come to facing the reality of what is there right now.
i think it goes under the category of what MWD says about questioning our sanity in wanting our spouses back a year or 2 after BD.
here's my interpretation of the dream - i could be way off:
look at the emotion you had during the dream - from your description, it was indifference, while the dream was going on. and from what i understand, it is the emotion you feel during the dream that carries the message of where you are at. i think, that your dream was just confirming for you that you are really detached , and the details of the dream were your fears coming up. your reaction of anger when you woke was just your conscious reaction
but on to - MR. Strawberry Shortcakes?
a rather elegant name!! don't you think.
i think we'll have to bring strawberry shortcakes to the picnic today in his honor. i'll volunteer - can someone bring espresso?
(((( ))))) zig
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
