Husband Filed for Divorce Today

[Jessica M.]

Thanks Denver.

The going dark is hard. We still live together and share household duties and financial responsibilities. We won't be around each other much this week because we are working opposite shifts.

We have our first hearing next Monday but I may have convinced my husband to postpone finalizing the divorce until I can get a probono attorney. I am on a waiting list. I did say I would still move out. He is very concerned that I am ignoring what is going on and just hoping that it will get better. I am very aware of what is going on and I am trying to make changes in myself that I need to make. I am praying for reconciliation but I am moving forward and making plans because I know there is a good chance that my husband will not change his mind. He is being very stubborn about this and will not even consider giving me another chance.

I did get upset last night because we were discussing the hearing and then he started talking about custody stuff and when he would have our daughter. The idea of being away from her for a weekend is unbearable. He wants to see her as much as possible and he will get her during the week too. We'll try and share her as much as possible to cut down on child care costs.

I'm trying to GAL. I went out to dinner and movies with a friend last Saturday. Me and my daughter went to the park yesterday and I met with my school advisor. I am just really busy and tired right now. I start school in 2 weeks and am looking for an apartment and I need to find child care for my daughter.

Emotionally I have been doing a lot better and able to keep my composure much more. Still a lot of work to do. I don't find myself thinking about the relationship every minute but I still let my mind wander at times when I'm not occupied.

I love everyone's support and advice! Very helpful!