yesterday something a bit strange happened - the woman who used to be my acupuncturist 2 yrs ago, called me out of the blue and invited me to join her and her friends to go to KC to a blues club to watch Wanda Jackson

on friday night - the big family dinner at in-laws. saturday is the main party at a club which i have committed to going to, but had left the other stuff open for myself.

so i just said yes and i felt a bit strange and excited while i did that - it was like i gave myself permission to get away from this whole thing with that family. i didn't really go and look at that schedule that mil sent me until late last night and that's when i realized that oops, it was at the same time grin

can't help thinking i got invited on that particular day for a good reason.

i'm excited though. it's really hard to meet new people when one works at home and so it will be so much fun to hang out with people i have never met before. also, who's going to miss Wanda Jackson if they had an ounce of sense in their heads, right

if i am really honest - i feel a bit quaky about not going - . i've taken every opportunity to be there so i could show h my changes etc - and suddenly i'm finding i'm not sure i want those occasions any longer. i have to just go with what come for me right now. i think it may be a tad bit awkward with them about this, s seems already upset about it but accepting, so it's time for me to spread my wings a bit in this sitch.

me 46 H 38
M10yrs T 11
S10
BD ow 8/11
h filed 9/25/12


"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"