Thank you unbidden and thank you Grace! Stand up paddle boarding great for abs I hear.
Had a mini interaction with H regarding S and then he liked something on my FB page. It was funny when I first joined this board, someone pointed me in to a thread about a WAW who had a change of heart. She patiently was his friend for a year after the divorce was finalised while he had a girlfriend and was living in the house they'd plan to buy together. Then she said enough. She stopped being patient and he started chasing. She stopped posting about that time but I filled in that they reconcilled and now have a 3 year old daughter.
So is that where I am? I had this dream last night where he changed his mind and wanted to get back together with me. I went to his house and she was there. The place was squalid and she was dirty and they had a kid that had a strange name and I said why'd you name your baby that and he shrugged goes you know me I don't care she wanted it. So I said nevermind lets just get all your stuff out of here. and he said I can move back in with you and I said we just need to get you out of here.
I woke up really angry and unsettled. He probably is in a mess emotionally and not really invested in their plans together...much like he wasn't invested in our plans together. But I don't want him to move in with me. Yes he would need to sort himself out but not in my house. My emotional house is now quite happy and I think that's what happened when we met. I was for the first time really balanced and grounded and that attracted him. I remember thinking he's needy and we're going fast but if I stay grounded it'll be okay. But that's not true. It doesn't work that way. I don't want anyone else's dirt in my house! LOL
Last night New Guy (what do I call him on here) sent me a picture of the little cartoon he has of Pema's story. It was so cute and because it was a cartoon sort of put the whole "scary world" in perspective. I like!
