I'm a new person

[2chiquitos]

LITB- well....
I was very nervous/uncomfortable. It felt like the first time I met his friends/family, odd? At one point I told H I felt uncomfortable and he asked if someone did or said something. I said no. Then he said, it's all in your head. Sit by the pool with the rest of us and have a good time.

I did and felt better.

Later that night H said that he hopes I can do that again. I can go and pick up the kids from a friend's place instead of H having to stay for a short time. This way I will feel comfortable staying for a bit then taking the kids.

I feel weird about that comment. I would rather go WITH H to the parties rather than meet up with them there towards the end of it. This made me feel like he is really liking this arrangement. I'm having a hard time detaching my feelings from this comment.

Pos* I only agreed and didn't give my rebuttal...

Also, he called last night and said to keep my saturday open. His dad wants to go to the fair and would like us all to go. It should be fun.

I went to a morning playdate. Then al anon. Tonite I'm going to walk the kids and the dog and follow our evening routine. dinner bath then bed. THEN ME TIME!!