Bug you are right! So happy to hear you had a great trip with some realisations I can't believe how much DB can positively affect your entire life!
So updates! After 4 days I got a text from H. I'd put a picture on my FB of me and an athlete I adore. H texted me and said just saw your status and picture. Last night I watched the news and thought Brit is going to be all over that like a dirty shirt. So happy you're seeing it from the inside. It made me laugh so much I showed S who was with me and he laughed too! So I replied and told him a little bit. The funny thing is in between his last text and today I had wanted to text him about moments but thought what's my real motivation? Approval? I don't know...but I didn't put myself in that sitch. I replied and told him what I was doing and he said "it's a hard thing you do this thing you call work" which made me laugh again! So I sent a funny text about how amazing my life is but sarcastically about how difficult it is. We texted on and off all afternoon including at one point him asking me for a picture of where I was because he wanted to see it.
Is this pursuit? Who knows. I'd rather it be us being friends. I'm not an idiot. He texted me rather than comment on my FB because he's probably worried about what his GF would be able to see. There was a moment in our texts where he said yeah but...and came up with some complications and I just said it'll be fine. I mean this is him negative, fearful, worried before you even find out. More likely to say no than look for a way to make something work.
In other news, date number 2 has got a date number 3 this week! No plans no expectations
Also I had a random conversation with a man this weekend an old man and yes everyone in the UK was on a huge high celebrating wins but he says to me "is your ex an idiot?" me "what?" him "can not understand how he'd allow a woman such as yourself to get away!" now he could have been being charming old English gent but if that isn't the universe saying you did it girl you are the woman only a fool would leave then I don't know what is! I feel confident, happy, secure, loved (by friends and family), beautiful, fearless and fun.
I can't believe how fearful I was before from trying new things to emotionally fearful and it's all gone. I think every DBer should have to jump out of a plane or learn a new language it does something to you to push yourself into some new situation head first and come out okay then somehow who you choose to be your partner in life means less than what the road you're on will look like.
