This morning I woke up and H was gone off to work early after a night of insomnia. He tried to rant last night about being a failure in life, I didn't engage him.


I was thinking that I need to be ready for what ever comes my way.

I just watched.......here's were I would put "the man I love", "my H".....but I need to protect myself from such intense words, stay focused on the reality.

Try again! I just watched him spiral and whirl around in his head, walk around the room forgetful, confused, tired, dirty, scared, and repeating " I wish I would have a heart attach right now"!

That was then and this is now. My new way of thinking to get through my day filled with thoughts of my needs and goals.

I always pray he's safe though....!

The past can't be ahead of you in the future.
You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction.
What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!