You have received so much insight from everyone here.
One thing I want to point out-yu mentioned the walls of the castle cracking. It's not YOUR home, YOUR world that is colapsing. Don't make it your crisis or problem to fix.
Come back to us. Lett's sit and sip on something for a while. You have been way to busy in your head.
I'm sending a message to serenity that she needs to hightail it back to you. I'm telling her to take her time bringing you back-you need to be still and float in the water for a moment. I'll get your towel ready.
Me-31 H-24 D3,D2 M 4 yrs WAW(me) 12/2011 role reversal 03/2012 (H)PA 3-6/2012 (H)D filed 6/2012 D deemed "inactive", closed 8/2012 I've moved on 9/2012