MLC with depression....double the fun!

[albamarie]

KD- Thank you, for sharing a little of your story. I never want to forget that we are ALL here for one reason or another.

"THEN see if your feelings are still the same, regarding your H and his actions"

Don't get me wrong...I am frustrated with him, even bored by all of this already.

I feel like a widow. I have mourned like a widow. Like the best parts of H only live in my kids now.

I am still willing to learn, pray, 180 , detach, shut up, and get out of the way.

I love him, I feel soo sad for him...me...us.

I have to put on a strong facade for myself and these grown, but hurting young adults, at least enough for me to believe it will make a diference.

I have been reading about MLC from multiple sites and I agree H behavior and language really match up with the symptoms.

My H says everything with that "pleased with myself" expression, along with that narcissism tone that can be very nauseating.

Also, H claims to be finally expressing his "true self" blaming our M...that he had to be a certain way to conform to the BS rules of M.

His true love in life was alway God. He feels so let down by God as if HIS finger was place on H and personally cursed him.

So I pray alone and don't discuss God or holiday's, birthday's, graduations, anything that invokes happiness is a set up for an explosion.

BTW: Someone here asked me about getting him help....my local village is aware, I just have to dial 911, not talk and they will come take him to the ER if he's suicidal.

I have also alerted the VP @ his work ( who was already privy to H rants and threats first hand) and told her she must take action if he's out of control. I told her anyone else would have been fired 3x over by now, or arrested....and she agreed to stop giving him chances.

I need everyone's help around me if I want to keep him safe!