Hey RT. Good to hear things are progressing. You may not see it, but I do...
As for the hands; think that might be a subconscious way of your body dealing with your emotions? Sounds like it to me, but curious what your thoughts are?
A child that played his parents?? Say it ain't so...
My suggestion? Focus on something and see it through. For example, focus on the fact that your trust is broken, deal with it, and let it go. Then perhaps you can go after the guilt, address it and forgive yourself. Then maybe the bit about her saying (presumably - not sure what you heard and what you think she is saying from these posts) defamatory things about you?
You need to address these things. May as well get started. But one thing, when you address it and set it aside, be sure you are really done with that one issue/emotion. Don't hurry through it so much that you later have to bring it back up.
For the hands? Perhaps some cognitive therapy would help? Kind of like when you get in front of a crowd of a thousand people and have to chatter on. In this case, you may have to think of something else when dealing with her. And clearing the guilt and trust issues out will help as well.
I've been there. I know what you're saying. But you have to take one step out at a time. No shortcuts. If you try, you'll see what I'm saying later.
Keep progressing! AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
