Where do I go from here?

[Hopeful84]

Thanks guys for the extra confidence I needed to do the right thing and look out for me.

Its always hard to know what to do, when your heart says one thing and your head is screaming at you no.

I am packing my "go bag" so to say so when he is headed this way I can leave, or as soon as he walks through the door if he doesn't call I can leave, although I would rather not see him at all. I think we both need some space, and the only reason I want to talk to him , is to start dividing our assets. I have spoken to a lawyer but I cannot afford the retainer fee of $4500 and neither can he. So if we do an amicable divorce, its cheaper and as long as we agree on the terms before hand, it would save us both money in the long run. I think my best option is to do complete no contact, even if I have to block his number again. Then when I return from my Tennessee trip, start looking at apartments that week I am off. That would put our no contact from August 2nd-August 25th, hoping to move out the last week of August or first week of September. Yes, it will put him in a bind, and possibly hurt my credit a little. As far as the house is concerned, I just need to figure out if he would give me permission to take my name off of it, which again would be in the divorce proceedings. I need to just really spend that week when I return gathering information, from lawyers and apartments, to start the process of moving on with my life legally and for good. I will definitely miss my dogs, but no offense to them, they aren't worth staying in this prison. I do have a lot going for me, and I do deserve better. Wish me luck and strength today.