a new perspective

[strongerthanever]

Journaling-

Heard a song this morning that took me back to the good ol days, and sadness crept in. I allowed myself to lean in to it, feel it and understand it.

I believe that it was the loss of a dream, of something treasured. I took out a pic of h and I and really looked at it.

I'm not sure where that happy full of life man went, or that great r. What I do know is that while I treasure those memories, that aspect of our lives is dead. I closed my eyes and sent him love; more tears followed.

I put the picture away and wiped my eyes. I know that I will feel that love again some day. As in love with him that I still am, I don't even know if I could trust him with my heart again. The man that my heart holds onto faded away years ago. He's not that man anymore.

I am so proud of my ability to let emotions wash over me, where not too long ago I was drowning in them. Maybe I needed that cry, just to let things go. I'm also proud of my gained emotional stability and the ability to gently move back into a state of peace.