good signs, bad signs, or nothing at all

[confusedfather]

It's been a while since I posted, so here is an update. Hopefully I am doing everything right, although it feels like what I am doing is losing my W. I know posts are supposed to be short, but I have a lot going on so bear with me.

Since W moved out I have been working on my goals. I have been going to the gym twice a week on the nights I don't have the kids. It's not much, but I am already seeing results. Excited about that.

I have been able to detach (for the most part) and focus on work. I have built a successful career and feel I am back on track. Even received Employee of the Quarter!

The biggest thing I have going is my cousin, who owns a bar and grill, has asked me to play guitar and sing at his restaurant. This has been my lifelong dream, which I never shared with anyone, including W. Out of the blue he shows up and tells me he wants me to play. Very excited and nervous about that.

My family has proven to be extremely supportive. I was somewhat nervous about this. I have 9 aunts and uncles, as well as 30-some first cousins. Not a single divorce in my extended family, so I was afraid I would be somewhat ostresized. I couldn't have been more wrong.

My relationship with my kids has improved tremendously. Perhaps it's the advantage of staying in the house they have always called home, but they are extremely happy to see me and always a little down when I have to take them to their mother's house. They call me on the nights I don't have them, and seem very happy with me on the nights they are with me.

Now the difficult subject. I have had regular contact with W, mostly short text messages about kids. I see her once a week, on Sundays, when we exchange the kids. Otherwise, I have not initiated any unnecessary contact. There has been some texts from her that did not seem necessary, but I have not read into them and not really provided much back. Today, my brother and his family were up, and even though this is her weekend with the kids, brought them by and then stayed a while. It was awkward but I still had fun. Later, after I take the kids back to her, she texts me that S12 overheard mother and SIL talking about us. Just the tone of the text told me she was angry, although it may be the fact that she had a good time and then had to be angry again to justify her actions. Still trying not read into anything. Believe none of what she says and half of what she does.

That is my life at this point. I have done several 180's, GAL, working on goals, not pursuing, acting as if, and trying to be mysterious. Is there anything else I should be doing at this point?