Hi Guys! I've been lurking off and on, but not posting, and thought I might as well give an update.
I continue to work on my little house, which I LOVE. Currently repainting the dining room walls and moulding. Almost ready for the chandelier.
Due to go to court on 8/29 for XH's Contempt of Court charge. Still 3 months behind in Alimony, even after reduction. But, here's my chance to have my say about that!
Time may not heal all wounds, but time has given me the distance and dimension of thought to look at my X from an angle I would not allow myself previously. For all my blindness, X was a singularly selfish person. Example: I spent months listening to his every word to decipher what absolutely wonderful Christmas gifts I could get him. He went out on Christmas Eve, and got me something I neither wanted or needed. Not that marriage is about what I GOT, but rather, that I was important enough to him for him to put some thought into it. I spent so much time giving him all the credit for my hard work ( family get togethers, etc.) he simply began to believe he deserved all the praise. Granted, I realize I created this Frankenstein Monster.
The long and short of it is that I am now able to enjoy the life that I have. I still have my regrets; that's part of life, but they don't overcome me. I am not dating, am not interested. My life is full of friends, kids and grandkids. There's just enuf room left at the end of the day for me, and I allow that gift to myself.
So that's my life in a nutshell. It's certainly not exciting, but I've had enuf excitement in the last few years to last me awhile. Peaceful is where I'm at.
