Lots of questions and a good deal of doubt.

[mshaf]

So told my W I wanted the boys tonight and tomorrow. I am doing this for myself and my boys, I guess I was hoping for more response from her.

Not having expectations is hard. I was hoping to get a more positive response. Dumb me, right? Now that I know she will have a night on her own I am trying not to think about what she will do with it. I am at work and we are slow so now I have time to think about things. I like to stay busy.

I want to detach. I want to be able to move on with my life, let her make her decision. I want to not care what she does because it s*cks to think about. I can't stand the doubt. I have to get a better attitude before I take my sons tonight.

The sad part is before the S I had no problem being on my own. I have always been the type of person to do things by myself and meet people along the way. I still am some what, but these things are always in the back of my mind waiting to surface the moment I have nothing better to do.