I'm a new person

[2chiquitos]

I feel like hiding under a rock and waiting until the mess is settled from the drama I just created.

It's ME! I create the drama!! I mean, he's not the perfect person but it's all my doing when we get into this whirlwind of drama. It feels like I get sucked in and bring him down with me.

Last night he said that he had appreciated the apology I gave him earlier in the day but when I called him last night it just sucked the life out of him. As if the apology was in vain. I'M THE ONE ON THE ROLLER COASTER!! Seriously!

I am sitting at the front of this ride and letting my emotions take me wherever they go. This minute I'm happy next depressed, then angry. Up and down and through the loops!

I'm clearer now but still feel that lump in my throat, regret!