I have sent serenity on her way, but put some rollerblades on her so she gets to you quick. Turtles can be slow you know, but as we know, serenity is often needed quickly so that we can then swim with acceptance.
I have attached a little wagon to her though so she can carry the key lime pie and the shots....
She Should be with you momentarily.
((((zig)))) I am pleased that you have had time to work through some of the tough emotions that you are conflicted with, that we can all relate to, and that you are more prepared for talking with H.
I think given the situations we are in, with WASs that seem to be running and looking for quick fixes for happiness, dropping bombs and making radical, life changing, seemingly knee jerk reactions, we freeze almost when we hear they want to talk even more. Because we have been conditioned almost to expect a bomb of one size or another.
I am like you my friend, I put up Walls to protect myself and I except the worse.
Usually what we fear in our heads is much worse than what the reality is. And that is because of you. You are ready for the next step, whatever it may because zig has grown, because zig has learned, because zig is the best zig she can be. You are stronger than you think and your fears are smaller than you perceive.
I have been swimming too for awhile. Think I will go back in for another dive. I have been trying to find acceptance. She swims deep.
I will meet you on the blanket. It's the weekend, so we can make this one an all nighter
(((( )))))
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home