do you mean because i'm expecting the worst?

yes you are right, i am guarding my heart - always done that very well. guess i'm still doing it.

i fear my own vulnerability with him - just as he has told me he fears his with me. i thought only he felt that all this time, but what you wrote made me realize that that fear lies within me too and it's even possible that i am more fearful of it than he is.

thanks for helping me to see this, labug

and i am glad that you are well

zig

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"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"