25,
thank you. I remember your good advices from the Lovenomatterwhat's topic.

My greatest problem is my job and education.
I don't have career, I am in IT sales and I am not very good salesman. That's why I need more skills in order to achieve financial stability. I need good salary to afford my girl's English, swimming and tennis lessons.

I have never had another relationship. I have never kissed another woman. I cannot imagine a life with someone else.
Looking back in the past a man who loves a woman never would do such things as I did to her.
She told me that I had never loved her, neither the OM loved her. We just love making sex with her in her opinion.
May be she is right.

I regret my failure because I liked her physically and she loved me unconditionally. She married me without conditions. I do not have money and real estates, I don't have prestigious education and job. She loved me because of me.