New to DB

[hopefulinga]

So, for me today, I got a massage, which was long over due.

Tonight he waited for me to come home from teaching, which he generally does. He was sitting at his computer and I purposely did not enter the room. I said hi when I came in and then went inside.

My car broke down today and he took me to pick up our spare. He has been under tremendous stress with work, which is another reason why I am steering clear of him.

I take all of our little communications in a positive way. Sometimes he is a little cold, sometimes not. I am doing my best to bite my tounge in situations where I wouldn't have in the past.

What happened Monday was a disappointment, but I can't let it get me down. I am trying to keep a positive attitude. I know that he is hurt, scared, guilty, probably having MLC, stressed out, and I have always been the excuse and mental whipping post. I know that and now know that I need to walk away.

I am learning a lot about myself and what I need to do different.