W did end up coming over for dinner...was a nice visit, but only lasted about an hour. She touched me a few times, even stabbing me in the @ss with a fork once. It was fun and playful and the kids had fun. Before she left, she hugged me and thanked me for being her friend. I wasn't sure how to take that, so I just rolled with it. No sense trying to mind read. She had said earlier that we might talk tonight, but she must have changed her mind because she never said anything of substance. Kids pretty much were all over here, so that may have done it too.
We're hooking up for massages tomorrow and then possibly drinks...but I'm not expecting anything. I feel so attracted to her it's weird....seems like we hit a reset button and went back 15 years. I want to chunk all our problems out the window and just grab her up and kiss her, and I honestly think she'd go with it. I'm just not sure that's the right move right now. I'm just going to let her lead and see what happens.
I definitely get the sense that she's feeling me out, trying to see where my mind is. She says stuff like "I don't want to wear out my welcome" which I find odd. She seemed to float between comfortable at home mommy and dinner guest tonight, and was unsure where the boundaries were.
