Newbie and ready for hard work

[dj21]

It is a great morning...I have been reading "How to improve your marriage without talking about it" and it is interesting. I continue to stumble into each day thinking I have all the answers and I have the magic plan of how things "should" be. Uhhh, not a chance. While this journey is painful, frustrating, and uncomfortable I am finding AH HA moments. I know my actions aren't genuine yet, because they are still so uncomfortable to do, but I do them anyway. I hate to admit that I believe I am thankful that my H and I are separated. I have a lot to work on, and not having the daily face to face just might be a gift. I would love to have everything turned around quickly, H to recognize my change in actions over the last month, and the lack of contact. But, do I really? No. Because I know, that I wouldn't be able to maintain my changes, and I cannot contribute to a happy healthy marriage. Today I will be positive, I will not be fearful, I will not be angry. I will be okay.