H called last night at 12:30am! Said that he has been having nightmares about me.
He has done this in the past. Ususally not pleasant. That I am some sort of vindictive mean person. I didn't ask what these are like but he said he has had them EVERY night since we talked last week.
You will remember that I called him last week somewhat emotional. I have been spending a lot of time looking at myself through his eyes. To really see myself in a different perspective. It really brought things to my attention and H was on my mind heavy, so I called.
H asked me more about that last night. H wanted to know what I saw when I looked at myself through his eyes. I described some of the things that I was not happy with as to how I behaved in the past. That I held onto a lot of resentment and then I would say one thing but my tone and body language were saying something else and that must have been confusing. EXAMPLE: Sure H go ahead and go golfing on Sat. The words were the only thing saying SURE. Last night H said YES YES! that happened all the time! I think he really believed that I understood how HE felt.
We talked a little bit about the address thing. There is more to the story, I'm not exactly sure what it is. H said maybe someday we'll talk about it.
H told me that he really enjoyed the weekend that I spent up there. He said QUOTE: "I loved every minute, from the time you got off the plane, until you left. I feel bad that I couldn't have gotten you up here on that Friday night."
We talked a little more and a little again about the address.
After we hung up, I couldn't let the address thing go. I felt like he wasn't being honest about the whole thing.
Text message to H W:How long did you live with her? after several hours of thinking about this another text message: W:Doesn't matter. Just don't lie and tell me BS that address is that way because of your license. HONESTY H: I have never lived with anyone. Stop it.
OK I went down the cheeseless tunnel. Focused on what was NOT important. And made ASSumptions that turned out to be false.
All whacking graciously accepted.
H told me before he hung up that he just wanted to hear my voice.
Contemplating a text message this morning that says: Happier thoughts today, focusing on the wonderful weekend visit.
