I'm a new person

[2chiquitos]

labug-I'm having such a hard time letting the past go.

For the past two weeks I have been sooo good! I would do all that I had learned when the thoughts/triggers came up. I was finally having a really really good week!

But this week has been so difficult. My son was supposed to have surgery today but it was postponed because he's had a fever since Sunday night. It seems as though my triggers overwhelm me when I'm at my weakest. It definitely felt like a test.

I would consume my day thinking of all these things that happened when I had to be focusing on S4 and D1. Today I was soo overwhelmed! I asked H for help and he came but I had to leave for a couple hours to get my sanity back. When I got home, H was trying to soothe inconsolable D1.

I have this lump in my throat and it won't go away.