Newbie and ready for hard work

[dj21]

I don't even know where to begin. Fear is so difficult for me to get my head around, I wish I could just drain some of the crap that floats around up there. I don't have a beginners mind. I need to focus on clearing some garbage out. I am laughing at myself, literally as I type, if my body is made up of mostly water, than my brain is made up of mostly fear. Did that even make sense? Probably not very funny, but really to me it is a bit comical. If I knew I wasn't a failure, or I wouldn't be discarded, and so on, I would feel so free, light and relaxed. hhmmmmm, that would be a nice place to be, I hope tickets go on sale soon.:) I don't think I have ever thought about fear do deeply as I did today.