MLC with depression....double the fun!

[MrBond]

No you're taking things to personally. Your anxiety stems from your H's erratic behavior and his depression. You're not getting the support you need to cope with that. And I'm talking about someone face to face. Being on this forum is great and we could talk about how to act when your H is being a douche, but there are real deep seated issues that stem specifically from clinical depression that is best discussed with a professional.

There is a book that I forget what the title was, but it deals with spouses who deal with a loved one with depression. In the end it stresses that those who live in such situations need to get support for themselves.

Right now you feel worn down, helpless, beaten down, walking on eggshells, tell me when to stop. Bottom line is that there's nothing you can do to change that as long as you tie yourself and your feelings to your H. You need to detach yourself from the drama. How about meditating? Do something that you must mentally do to get your mind off of him? Right now you can't seem to shut that off and no amount of talking on a forum is going to help you to do that. YOU have to make the effort to do it and take it one step at a time.

Eventually the noise will get softer and you will be at peace.