Kaffe Diem-Interesting push you gave me, my previous C kept trying to advise me to "share your anger", "tell your H how angry you are at him"...I didn't, thank goodness. Wouldn't have been productive. This process felt productive, difficult and a bit humbling, but productive. Thank you.
1) I fear embarrassment of failure 2) I fear rejection and being discarded 3) I fear his reasons behind the anger 4) I fear my H isn't emotionally invested in our family 5) I fear my H is content 6) I fear that by missing him I am condoning behaviors that hurt me
It seems I am full of fear...My H has been such a primary support person and sounding board for 24 years, it is a terrifying realization to be on my own and have it be him that is the one that I am struggling with. I fear the loss of comfort, even though the comfort was not the happy M we had up until a few years ago. I fear the loss of connection. Being vulnerable is uncomfortable for me, and having to process what my fears are in relation to my anger makes me want to run and hide. But I didn't.
M 43 H 43 M 21 T 24 Bomb 9/2011 EA 9/2011 H moved out 10/2011 I filed for D out of anger 2/2012 H moved in with OW 3/2012 focused on blame and bitterness 9/2011-6/2012 found DB 7/2012
