Quick Update and a reminder to myself going forward to BE PATIENT! After internally freaking out about the conversation we had last week and the follow up email, I was not in the greatest mental place. I wanted to call, to text, to email... but I was able to pull back on all of that for the most part.
I took my IC's advice and sent a single text yesterday morning, knowing it was going to be a particularly tough day for her, simply wishing her luck and strength. A few hours later, she texted back, thanking me for the thoughts and letting me know that her day actually turned out to be wonderful, as the circumstances that were going to make it a very tough day had changed, thus making her extremely happy. She also stated that she felt that this was another sign that her moving back to central Florida was the right thing to do... which stung a little. Then she told me she'd be calling later this week to catch up.
While this was all nice, I still focused a bit on the "Sign" part of the text and let myself get a little bit down. Thankfully, I was able to pull out of this little tailspin relatively quickly by going out for drinks with a friend after work. Getting in a social environment, meeting new people, and having great conversations had me practically floating when I got home. I'll be okay no matter what happens with the W.
Then, much to my surprise, I awoke this morning to another email from W, telling me a story about how she heard a song on the radio yesterday that reminded her of me and that it made her tear up alternately in sadness and happiness... While I never like to hear of her crying, it was nice that she reached out just to tell me that she thought about me yesterday.
I need to remember to keep on track, keep working on myself, GAL, Act As If, and BE PATIENT... while everything seemed so dark only a few days ago, today things seem to at least be moving in a positive direction... Although I know it's only a VERY small step on this long, tough journey.
