Ah zig - you're another star in my nights sky. Thank you.
Overwhelmed is spot on. After that letter from my W's L this morning I was truly wrecked. I nearly packed in what I was doing to come home. It was only after speaking to my best friend that she persuaded me to keep my mind off things and go to my next job appointment. And I managed reasonably well.
At last I managed to get hold of my L's assistant who's going into his office and sit on him if required to get a holding letter sent off to my W's L. THAT'S what I've been waiting for someone to do. Even though I was dreading it and putting it off.
If she was mad this morning then I can just imagine the state SHE's going to be in when she finds out that I did something else she wasn't expecting.
Feeling so much like my W's puppet right now. Which is wearing off rapidly. It's no fun! What's also not fun is that you're right - she knows it!
It's the W's roller coaster I'm on which has to stop. And the detaching is something I'd really REALLY like to continue. Every time I manage for a while, I feel great and then the next bang where I fall.
You're right - fix the phone and sort out a new email. Perhaps she WILL realise I'm not that bad to deal with. Perhaps not but I'm not letting that affect me (on the outside).
Let the L's handle the behind the scenes crud. So long as I don't have to put up with all that pressure! It's been truly unbearable as I'm sure some of you know. Moral - don't try and do this yourself people. Get a professional!
You're also right about acting if she wasn't here. Thats the closest I can get while she's under the same roof looking miserable. I've got lots do do around the house which she's avoiding doing. Like cooking, washing and making the beds after a full day at work! I'll manage. I've done it before and I'll do it again.
I'm hoping she'll go to her old home town down the coast this weekend to see more family. More family who will not support her in this but will listen if she has anything to say. She's totally on her own in this.
Zig - ranting is a good sign from her. I can see the old W buried away behind that anger. Walking away will surprise the heck out of her as she'll be expecting me to join in the fray. Not going to happen.
I can see what you mean about people ranting. After all it's not something she can call the L and say "he's not helping me do this - stop him". Running scared? Hope so.
I saw an entry on another post - can't remember who's or exactly how it goes but the gist is I'm going to be like the Terminator. Keep going and going until I reach my goal irrespective of what gets thrown in my way.
And zig - a passing thing? One that may last 3 months? Well as I've said, I've done it once and it DID get better, I got better.
Oh and my L has just been on the phone to me. He's asked for a meeting between W's attorneys, W and I at his offices to discuss.
