I didn't have any real suspicions. He has told me that they DO NOT see each other any more. He said they are friends though. I asked who broke up with who and he said it was a mutual decision. That is when he said that he is not mate worthy. That he is a recovering mate. Kind of like a recovering alcoholic.
I took much of our conversation to be that he is very confused within himself. Not so much about being with her. But how to get himself in order to be with me.
I think he realizes how much pain he has caused. I told him I shouldn't snoop and I shouldn't ask questions, but it is like a car accident. You don't want to look, know you shouldn't and get hurt when you do. I explained that I am hurt that H allowed himself to have an A with her.
He told me before he left that he wanted Seattle to be a fresh start for him. I was there, she was not. He came back here for the weekend, he called me not her. When I asked him about her missing him he said "I bet she does" in a not so nice tone. Not directed at me, but her. Does that make sense?
He really did try this weekend. And we had a good time. Even though that little episode happened, we need to talk about this stuff at some point. We need more weekends like this.
With each new development, I am always faced with "what to do now?" I know, what works, but I feel we are moving is some sort of direction. Don't I need to keep up?
How does Reconnecting happen in the stages of MLC? He is making HUGE reconnections with his family. Calls his sister every Sunday. He used to go months without talking to her. He talked to his Mom twice, his grandma, his sister and his dad this weekend. VERY different for him. And not just idle chit chat, but real meaningful conversations regarding his family and their issues.
I'm not sure where this falls in the MLC stages. VinL if your out there any ideas? Is this a Depression thing? What about Withdrawl?
I'm going to go eat my chocolate and squeeze my puppy.
