but I am worried about adding stress to my already rocky M.
I am really worried about being selfish here. I have been selfish A LOT in the past in our M.
In all fairness, this is about the death of a family member. One whom I am sure your W knows your close relationship with, regardless of her comments which may have been due to dementia.
Attending a funeral such as this IS selfish. Yet it doesn't mean you are a bad provider.
Also, remember that right now, your W is asking for space. This is very unlikely to be some "test" from her regarding your priorities. If it is... well, that is a daemon your W will have to deal with.
True.. I also honestly am scared to go home. She made it clear she isn't looking forward to it, and I know I have to move out. I'll admit, for the first time in my life, I am terrified. I used to play tough, and keep my emotions inside, but lately I can't even fake it.
However, I think I will go home for the funeral. I fish for her father, and he already said I could go if needed.
