New to this and hating it.

[Jannie]

H continues to complain about finances. He is angry that he is struggling because of how much money he gives me to pay the bills. I barely make it from one payday to the next. He won't talk to me except through texting. He often "baits" me for an argument but I won't argue with him. I will point out that he chose to live like this but fall short of getting into a fight. He makes mention of how much time I spend out with friends and thinks I'm blowing money. Nothing could be further from the truth. I do spend time with friends, but we do things that are practically free. Most of what I do involves all of our kids so it's not even that I'm leaving mine with a sitter. To him my life may look very colorful, but nothing could be further from the truth. I don't mind him thinking it though! Still, he most likely believes his life would be so much better if he wasn't responsible for his family. He has threatened to walk of his job to "cut me off". He is really not thinking clearly. I cannot do anything about that other than pray and wait. It's so frustrating to watch him self destruct and take us down with him. It's scary too.