I called H to just say hi, have a good chat. All was going well, and then he got onto the finances. I'm not bringing in any money. Sure, I have work experience here and there, but nothing that I'm getting majorly paid for (though a little bit). Anyway, so he started getting upset.
Gosh, he really can hold that against me. He works 12-14 hours a day and he gets resentful of that, which I know has nothing to do with me. Still I get to hear how little I contribute to the household, and how he is fed up with supporting me, and when am I going to get a job that pays.
I explained that what I am doing is getting my MA to be able to improve my skills for the long term! Granted, I still need to improve my skills particularly for commercial photographic work, which I am doing now.
I have had two business before though. My first one I worked like a dog and although the business did well and supported itself and staff, it never fully supported me. I sold it as a going concern and the business continues to operate 12 years later. It's a good feeling to see it whenever I drive by it. Anyway, my second business was exactly the same.
So, I'm retraining now to be able to network in a new industry and get a better more steady income coming in.
A lot of my fellow student colleagues have a lot of commercial work behind them, experience I don't have so I'm doubling up on my learning curve. I wish he could understand that. I have explained that to him, and he just comes back with the same old complaints.
I don't feel all that great right now.
At the end, I texted him that I don't need him knocking my confidence.
