Mandy, Once you land in your special place, the anxiety will go away. Yes, new memories will be made and I bet they will be wonderful! I hope that you and your son enjoy your vacation and while you are there, do try to find some new and exciting things to do.
I can't believe your son will soon be 18! The time has flown by. Your "x" sure has missed out on some wonderful times w/his son. He'll regret it some day. You have so much to be proud of. Your son sounds like a wonderful young man. He is very lucky to have you in his life.
Enjoy your holiday!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
