WOW!!! Yes, I see depression and some acceptance of things... WOW... how awesome you were! WOW!! Hang in there. This is when it gets so hard for me... you see the light, you know it is there so you want and expect it all now... I get so impatient! But you can't. No expectations. Take it for what it was, absolutely no pressure. Be a friend (Okay, a very sexy, horny friend...).
You did so great!!
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
