New attitude, new thread

[ClingingToHope]

It was a really good pitch. This company had resorts in every place I plan on going in the next three years. I would have signed up if I could have afforded it. They kept lowering, lowering, lowering the down payment until it was down to a level I could afford -- but then I wouldn't be able to use the resorts in the peak or summer months. What's the point then?

So I let it slide and got my gift -- a three day, two night stay in the Wisconsin Dells. We go every winter and this will save me $400 or so.

So that's how the day started. It was D9's, now D10's birthday, and I had a lot of time to think on the drive down and back because my radio isn't working in my car.

The day D10 was born was pretty cool. It was a Monday and XW was being induced. She said I could go to my Monday morning softball game. I went 4-for-4 and we beat our big rival in the league.

I showered and went to the hospital. Things were fine at first, but then the epidural wasn't working and XW was in a lot of pain. The doctors didn't want to give her a second one, but I insisted because the look on her face told me she wasn't ready for that much pain.

Things went well after that except that D10 pooped on the way out. The doctors were worried it got into her lungs so she had to go to the pediatric ICU for a couple of hours. I went down and stayed with D10 to make sure they did not feed her. With D13, they fed her overnight and she never took to breastfeeding.

Finally, D10 was given the OK and she was taken back to the hotel room where XW's mother got a picture of D10, XW and I.

When the marriage crumbled and we split up, D10 would ask me to tell her that story again and again and again.

D10 was with XW this weekend. She was supposed to go to her grandmother's campground. She didn't want to go because no friends could go with her. Instead, they went to a small local zoo and she had a good time. She came over to my house at 6 p.m. to get her present from me and hang out for a couple of hours.

She hesitated about a couple things in her zoo story, which told me the BF went with. XW made a point when she dropped her off to say D10 spent the weekend with just her.

XW has been telling the girls to lie about the BF. I told the girls there's no need to lie. I know what's going on. Still, they get caught in the middle.

XW picked D10 up at 8:30 p.m. And I just laid down to watch TV for a few hours. I'm in a lull where I'm not crazy busy and the motivation has just drained from me. I'm not even really working out and I'm feeling a little flabby. Dating opportunities are drying up again, but then again it's not going to matter when the grad school classes at the end of August.

Another week.