As for the alones? I have to say that comes and goes for a while. Limbo, crazy behavior, etc take their toll my friend. You can't expect it to not have an impact right?
While you may have wanted otherwise; while you may not like that somebody you once (or still do) love(d) is trying to paint you out to be the bad guy in her story; while you may not like the way things happened or happen - you are under a lot of pressure. Find a way to relieve that pressure. Your subconscious seems to be finding it's own way and you may need to adjust the conscious to do the same.
Just thinking out loud.
Take care.
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
