Update:

So, big backslide yesterday. I pretty much broke every rule possible. I talked about our R and impending D. I brought up how much this was going to affect our children. I suggested MC and said I would not sign D papers unitl she attended. I ws pushy, argumentative, and controlling. I get the feeling I set myself back a good bit.

It is hard to not be upset with my W. When she left she brought up all these reasons for wanting a D. Selfishness on my part, drinking too much, argumentative, so on. I guess without me and "my problems" being around she feels she has to supply these things now. She can't see that she is becoming everything she said she hated. This is getting on my nerves.

I am at the point where I am really begining to not like my W at all. If she will so readily hurt me and my children do I really want to be with someone like that. All of thses reasons I had for being upset with our M before she left seem to be getting worse. She has always been spoiled(only child)but now she seems more so. She has always felt the world owed her something. Also getting worse. She is spiteful.

She states she wants to remain friendly during and after the D. **** that. I am getting to the point where I want nothing to do with her. In the end it is not about me. It is about by S3 and S7mos. I feel I must protect them.


Me:27 W:30
S1:3y/o S2:8m/o
T:5
M:3
Bomb:5/16/12
W moved out:5/16/12