Hi- i am trying to write to jack three bean. I just read a couple of your very "straight" comments to someone above. this morning i'm dangerously close to , well, something drastic. I read the mlc part of db - it was like a litebulb over my head.
now, year later- i wonder if the man i loved & met is just dead&gone. fact- we were happy(34 yrs) til he quit smoking - began cheating& computer lovelife(and retired!). (well-last 4 stinked in retrospect - his anger & criticism (I was toughing out- thought just his withdrawal & rough patch).
i wonder if you have a word of wisdom or way to stop and look back or forward or straight ahead or somewhere & recapture my perspective. i was SOO sure first off that he & what we had was worth any fight. I am pretty tired today. - maybe he's changed too much & i am wrong.
i am applying the db rules & doing okay- he continues his affair(s) and he would love to relegate me to an e-mail once a day, & seems perfectly happy with me detaching- i'm losin faith in his "inside guy" - maybe just my leftover pollyanna-ism?
any insights? i need somethin here rather badly
thanks if you see this and have something to say - nero
