wow..kinda teared up a bit there..been awhile. yeah i have a good homegroup. i go to some good meetings. my sponsor is cool. we dont talk as much as others. i like it that way.

i am not competing with my W. i try not to think about her. if i do i focus on the good stuff.. keeps my pma going. i am not a failure. that i know. i simply decided i have had enuff. i am focused on me. me being better means i will be able to teach my kids how to be adults. my son how to be a man. i know i will be a man only a fool would leave. i am getting there. it will be a lifelong endeavor and i look forward to it.

as far as helping others...lol yeah right. just dont do what i did. i dont have any great insights or anything. i am just me. that is good enough for me. i try not to be all self rightous and preachy to people. maybe one day i will be able to help. gotta sew myself back together first. i was broken, but with the help of god and many people here, i am putting the pieces back together.

where my w goes only she knows. this is my path and she has hers. somethin mach1 said to me awhile ago has really stuck. about the angry lady at the hairdresser. 10 or 20 years down the road, do i want to be that angry, resentful, bitter lady? he11 no!

Dakota


m:31 W:32
M:8 T:11
S:10
D:5
Bomb:1/07/12
Separated:4/23/12
Divorced: 12/12/12