I'm glad you've solicited some extra help. I did check in about around the 16th and started to respond, and the notes about your 'turtles' got me curious and I started looking those up.
Then something huge fell apart at work, and I've been distracted by that -- travelling, etc.
Like me (and everyone probably) you have lots of 'pieces' that you work on. The relationship, your work, your friendships, yoga, etc. So your focus changes. Keep your focus on the things that are most important to you.
I will read through your thread, especially the most recent pieces.
I have experience especially years ago with meeting other DBers in person. I went to the KLA seminar with another DBer, and later met up with some.
There are good reasons why personal contact through this board is not encouraged. Some of it simply that this place is meant to be temporary. While some folks stay after their initial DBing...hopefully with success, most folks leave after not needing it. That's the way it's supposed to be. Staying connected often reminds people of terrible times. Or one of the two is often negative and holding the other back. Of course there are lots more scenarios than that.
sg Love is PATIENT, love is KIND, LOVE never fails / DB since 2001