So the goodnite phone calls are going well. Issue resolved.
When W dropped off S at my house this morning she brought a movie with her. She said it was the best movie she has seen in a while. She thought I would like it.
She also had more eye contact and was much more cheerful. It was nice to see her in a good mood.
I'm thinking about calling her just for light conversation every once in a while. Or asking if she would like to join us on an outing.
I just feel like doing something different.
You know I've been dim for a good while. I am feeling more detached.
Maybe it's too soon. We have only been separated a little over a month.
The truth is I want to persue her. Tell how much I love her and miss her. That I realize my shortcomings of the past. That I would never take a moment with her for granted again. What I wouldn't give for one more kiss. That I want her smiling face to be the last thing I see at night and the first thing I see in the morning for the rest of my days.
So I have answered my own question. Stay dim. I'm not there yet. I have to protect myself.
