So I have laid low for a while just trying to absord some things and gain some clarity. A few new things news to report, and new some baby steps on how to proceed.
First of all the D is still pending. I look at that as time. Second the H and I have been talking for a little bit each day since Wed. Simple things like how his motorcycle rides have been going. He mentioned seeing some really cool things and said he was sorry I was not there to see it. I just replied it wasn't meant to be, and he said I guess not. Tried not to read too much into that. We talked a bit more and I said that these items sounded like Bucket List items and he said maybe one day I will take you with me....again, trying not to mind read.
The convos have been light and upbeat, if he starts to get ticky, I do not allow it to effect my mood. Big change for me. It's scary to me how much just getting a simple text brightens my day.
So here is my question. How do I proceed? I don't want to spook him and send him running again, but I want this to continue and hopefully develop into more. This is the most thawed I have seen him in months. I know....this is off DB script, but I really do hope to begin fresh. I know I still have a lot of work to do, and I am committed to doing that. I got new meds today, and hopefully that will help stabalize my mood swings.
So...where to go from here? Slow and easy--someone please walk me through that as that is not my forte.
