I think you are progressing nicely RT. Told you I saw anger, and I still do. Doesn't mean you have to be angry at her. Do you see that now?
I totally relate to the part about p*ssing on her when she's down. I was that way for a while as well. Same with OM. Honestly though, I eventually got to a place where I realized it (you're faster than me) and figured out I only wanted that as revenge. I really don't want revenge because of who I am and have always been. Revenge is not mine and not my place. Don't need nor want it.
I think you said some powerful things to the kids that will help them. I applaud that.
As for not wanting to look at your W? I get that too. I had no desire to see her for a very long time. Eventually, I got to a place where I really don't care either way. I do know that I cannot have a conversation with her (tried many times). It's like talking to a Chinese person - they aren't going to understand my English no matter what I say.
Keep feeling. Keep working on it. You are doing great in that regard....
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
