Should I initiate R talk?

[Arsene]

I went our while W was out with D8. Just acting "as if". I didn't want her to come back and find me where she'd left me. I put on some new clothes I'd gotten recently and made myself look good and just left. I now realise that having been away from this city for a while (we lived in another country all of last year)I don't really have many friends left here. Most of the local friends we had are mainly hers and the few friends I have here were all either out of town or busy so i just drove around town on my bike. I went to a gallery and sat in a park for a bit, I then went to a cafe and tried to think about how I should do things from now on. Put a lot of thought on my 180s and GAL ideas. Even went online on my phone and read a few threads on this site about detaching.

Around 9:30 pm i decided to come back home, figuring W and D8 would be back by now and they were. They were playing "snakes and ladders" on the bed and asked me to join them for a game so i did. I was cheerful and so were they and we had a good time. Still noticed that W was distant so I matched her mood and I tried to be kind and distant as well (with W, not with D8). Nonetheless, we had a good time. W then told D8 a story before bedtime while I rubbed D8's feet and then, W's phone rang.

She usually answers it in the room but this one, she went just out of the room (for 10 seconds) and came back in. Then she laid down next to D8 and hugged her but i sensed the mood had changed so I left the room and went to have a bite to eat in the living room, trying to be as casual as possible. She then came out of the room and went to take a shower, came out and started dressing up from the clothes she'd worn during the day (shorts and an old T-shirt) to some of the clothes she used to wear to go out. Then she put on some make up and used mouth rinse, all the stuff you do before going out on a date, and she took her merry time as well. By that time, I was waiting by the door to let her out, again, acting as casual as i could. When she walked out the door I said "Have a nice night out" and as she walked away, she said "Are you ok?" I said "yeah!don't I look ok?" and closed the door on her, again as casually as possible.

Now, my heart is in pain. I hurt so much just to think of it. I need to move on. Get away from her. She's poisoning me and I think she's liking it. I need help.