A Huddle of Turtles

[reachingHigher]

Wow, zig! The loneliness!

We can talk about it with each other but who can share that deep down feeling? I have glimpsed it a few times since H & my separation and it terrifies me. But I believe I will have to face it in order to heal -- with H or without H.

I looked out the window (we live in the country) at the setting moon a few nights ago. I asked myself who I really was in this big, big world. Was there a new place of peace for my heart instead of the wornout old places my heart used to find peace?

I didn't know the answer at that moment, but what I did know is that part of my journey will have to include finding peace. Which may or may not include loneliness at times.

And I do know that H & I will never have the R of our dreams unless I find an inner sense of peace and balance whether I am alone or not.

I started changing it more to us walking far apart, but both of us moving along, just not next to each other right now. and then a strange thing happened - i started to see how I was the one who was moving forward - at an incredible pace, and to me he seemed to be the one who was stuck and paralyzed .

Absolutely love what you said here.