That is something I too have been facing. I have my girls every other week, which means that following every other weeks I am all alone. It's been like this for 7 months, but the lonliness just recently set in.
Anger is a great escape from reality. I was too busy walking around my home pissed at H, over any crazy reson to realise I was all alone! Sounds like crazy talk, but anger kept me company.
Then came the acceptance of reality, and I began to look in the mirror and the way I was living. So about 6 weeks ago I joined the YMCA where I take cardio kick boxing classes, zumba, swim...I love it. Still come home to a empty house, still pretend my pillow is a warm body, but at least anger moved out.
In a way I feel like that aspect of my life has been on hold, like I'm stuck in transition mode or something. I'm sure it's part of the process and that it will pass when it's meant to.
So nuggets of wisdom, just reassurance that you arent the only one who feels that way.
<3
Me-31 H-24 D3,D2 M 4 yrs WAW(me) 12/2011 role reversal 03/2012 (H)PA 3-6/2012 (H)D filed 6/2012 D deemed "inactive", closed 8/2012 I've moved on 9/2012
