A Huddle of Turtles

[zig]

so one of the things that i am facing now, is a deep sense of loneliness - i've never felt it in this way before. i think i've always distracted myself form it, either by focusing on other things or people or ignoring and burying it in some way.

I'm sure I'm not the only one dealing with that here - and i wondered if anyone had thoughts on it and if we could have a discussion about it - not just how different people deal with it , but also about what the different perspectives are about why one should feel that way and where it's coming from.

what i feel for myself is that all my life i have possibly focused really intensively on external things to avoid that feeling. Now when i finally face myself, and suddenly i do find myself in the position that i've realized that it's just me, me alone that has to face all the parts of my life completely on my own, that no one can walk this part with me, that i have to do it on my own, that no one can really help me do it, and then this strange feeling of utter aloneness has arisen.

i can't say it is entirely negative - sometimes it feels like that for a bit, but most of the time i see it as this is where i am, this part of the journey i have to do on my own

any one else been through this or going through this right now?

zig