Thanks again. One thing I need to point out, I do not believe DB is BS, it is a great help and something I have to stick to.
Jack, yes sir, my stubbornes and pride are preventing me from becoming a better me. I am seeing all this now, and like you say, I hope it is not too late and she is fed up with the BS.
"Buts", Another big No, I have to change. Like I said i can recognize when I am wrong, and look for the answers on the right place. Your advice is been taken in considetarion, I am taking the bull by the horns in this issue and stop making excuses for my self. I am strong, I know I can become a better me, I am already a better me that is becoming better and better.
Eric, although you are not here to be my friend, you are here to pay it forward. Well, thanks, I do consider all of you putting your .2 cents to be friends. Great, and truthfull advice of this kind comes from real good people.
Eric, the NEED VS WANT, I realized yesterday when I wrote the last post that I was using need on everything. I do not NEED to make any changes in me if I do not WANT to. I went back to everything I wrote on my last post and changed the NEED for WANT. I WANT a better me, I am a better me, and becoming better everyday, that is the mantra I WANT to follow.
Yes, I am working on a better me, and I am in control of my anger, my desperation, my life.
STFU = Wisdom to listen and understand and act on that understanding. Got it!! I HAVE to implement it, NOW!!
DETACHMENT, from what happen yesterday, like Jack point out on the outcomes, and I am going for #1. Stop the destructive behavior, follow the advice, STFU and control my self. This is now.
I am expecting a lot things right now, I have to lower my expectations. Stop controlling, stop feeling disrespected, and keep reminding my self I HAVE to be better, I am better and becoming better everyday.
I see the great wisdom in you guys. Eric, you are right on the spot man, I am wondering if I screwed things rollay and sent W to OM. Yes, I prayed yesterday for it not to happen. Yes, I love my wife enough to let her go, I know this will make me a better me, regain the real trust and confidence. This is the goal..
I am on that vicious circle, fear, control, insecurity. I am dragging W with me on it, and it is why she is pulling out. I am pulling out of this vicios circle, I am pulling out.
I WANT confidence, peace, happinness. I am a better me, and how can I become a better me: Confidence, peace, happiness.
Eric, Jack I appreciate you guys. I wish I can physically stretch your hand and say thank you.
Eric, I was thinking more of "Reina, Hazme una carne Asada, porfas"..
