my man..what is goin on with you? you sound like you did months ago. so you were a dumbass and signed a sep agreement that didnt work out. big deal. why are you so mad? what happened to your anger management? i know you can do better than this. why are you letting the thoughts of her and OM ruin your day? you have known for a lon time it was happening. people have affairs, they lie about it, they decieve to get what they want. that is life. i never wanted this sitch. it hurt my pride and i let my pride get in the way. at first i thought it was getting in the way of R. it was actually getting in the way of me being ok. once i stopped putting my personal value on her, and focused on me, stuff wasnt so bad. she didt have an A to "hurt me" or make me look bad. in fact i think i had very little to do with it. her actions are not about you. let it go. acting all crazy makes her REACTIONS ENTIRELY ALL ABOUT YOU! you can do this man. trying to find a reason for this isnt gonna help. there is no explanation. you wont get the "justice" you are looking for. what do you think should happen? jail? take away her birthday? cmon man. the only "justice" is for you to figure out how to be healthy. that is what you deserve. dont settle for this self hate, feeling sorry for yourself crap. you cant change her actions. you can accept it for what it is and move on. change you. there is light at the end of the tunnel. start walking towards it and stop bouncing off the walls on the way. i know you can do this! if theres one thing i know about you, you are sttubborn. put it to work for you. make the decision to be happy with you. accept nothing less and use your stubborness to stick to it!
